It really hurts when someone you pour out your heart to, doesn’t listen or seek to understand. Probably I feel so because I feel betrayed of a trust - you trust someone with your vulnerable moments, and they instead treat it nonchalantly and brush you aside.
I know people are bound to disappoint as humans are imperfect. But that doesn’t make the heart ache less.
It’s times like this that make me want to wall myself in, guard my heart until it cannot be shattered again.
But by doing that, that makes me less human, by becoming so immune to feeling at all. Strangely reminds me of Spock - don’t feel and you don’t get hurt.
Yet is this really what life is about?
Ah the deceitful selfish heart.
Lord, please help me not ever seek to be loved as to love, to not seek to be understood as to understand. Less of me, more of You. Let You be enough for me, and all that I need, and may I desire You above everything in my life.